Then I have historical mes that exist related to the life they faced. How can you distinguish this from modes in BPD? No we will not be left behind, we will always be with him and a part of him. 1Solicide System- Nx #2||entropy systemOSDDDID||DissociaDID . A wonderful article by the nonprofit Beauty After Bruises, run by volunteers with complex trauma & dissociative disorders and their loved ones + supporters. Necessary cookies enable core functionality such as security, network management, and accessibility. This article makes the complex simple. they're pure fucking evil and have ruined me in more ways than i can count but that's not the point. When someone asks you to describe who you are as a person, you might feel at a loss for what to say. In contrast, quick switches can be consensual, planned, forced, or triggered. I'm usually ok with this sort of contact with my alters, even when what they are leaking through to me and making me have to experience is painful things like flashbacks or difficult emotions, although some of them think and feel in ways that conflict with my personal morals which can be difficult to accept. Most systems will go to great lengths to hide their condition. Ive gone through quite some trouble because it wasnt recognized during therapy, because it has been painful and scary to go through intensely separated moods with a change of behavior, sometimes hating/repressing the other mood while I was in a certain mood (manly+fearless, feminine+empathetic, fearful+child-like, feeling like someone else), and not understanding what my mind was doing, nor any psychologist until I found someone who did kind of understand but they started messing with my head and not recognizing the painful traumas associated with people being intrusive and manipulative. It does cause distress, but that does not indicate what type of help I should be looking for. You might feel confused or distressed because you do not identify with the things that people associate your whole identity with such as name, personality, opinions, or preferences. Switches can be consensual, forced, or triggered. Loved and feeling safe is possible now, if only I can reach out and accept it, A severe case of OSDD, too many EPs to count and keep track of, somewhere between 50 and 100. antipsychotics don't do shit for me, and they can control my body to a limited extent (stuff like raising an arm or making me pee). i haven't heard of other systems where this is the case and was wondering if anyone else had experiences like this. I too was committed to a psychosis ward and schizophrenia was ruled out. Nobody wants to feel unwanted. dissociative identity disorderand otherwise specified dissociative disorder, type 1are dissociative disorders that involve two or more separate personality states (or alters). So partial amnesia and/or brain fog during a switch is still DID? You might hear voices, such as voices arguing or commenting on your actions. Weve also found that OSDD systems dont receive nearly the community or professional support they need. Thats all I can say. All of these points present certain issues for people with the OSDD label. Our switches are like "becoming" different people. There are 4 types of OSDD, but the most common is OSDD-1 which is similar to DID. Thank you for reading our peer article; we hope it was empowering, informative and helpful for you and your System. During break, I was in a zoom group where we were talking about what brought us there and what we hoped to learn. I took the MID a few months ago, with a new therapist and Im definitely on the Dissoiative spectrum along with amnesia, depersonalization, derealization, and child, helper, angry, persecutor parts (I refer to the parts I have learned about by age but I am still learning about them). OSDD fits a lot better. Sometimes it's met with a lot of just dissociation or noncontinuous thoughts. Many people with DID struggle with what their diagnosis means to them they may resent it or disbelieve it, but there is at least some understanding, and an increasing amount of literature, on the nature of dissociative identity disorder. When an electromagnetic coil surrounding the tube is energized, the reeds close, making an electrical contact. What are your similarities and differences between each other, what common ground can you find? A voice saying yes there is, yes there is. Then e switched again once morning was drawing close. it doesnt change much if your experience is unusual, if you can relate to a single thing from someone elses experiences, then that can help you understand your own experiences even if its a different disorder. For example, a system that has distinct members but does not switch would still be OSDD, despite not fitting into either A or B. Check this PDF for the symptoms of C-PTSD. There are as many Plural experiences, as there are Plurals. In contrast, the DSM-IV-TR conceptualises several dissociative disorders as long-term, chronic disorders, including dissociative identity disorder and some forms of depersonalisation disorder, dissociative amnesia, and DDNOS. So one option, favoured by many people that I have been in contact with, is to merge the categories and to count the condition as DID/OSDD and leave it at that. When there is often a strong emphasis on the dissociative parts of the personality, people with OSDD can feel unheard and unseen, and so I feel that it is very important to validate the reality of the experience of people with the OSDD label. My system usually falls into that categoryits OSDD 1b I think? If this is causing distress or difficulty for you, seek out a professional who specializes in DID to help you sort out whats going on. Being blurry is not always a stressful or upsetting incident, this is more dependent on the individual and situation. Im far from full blown DID, although my present therapist may argue about that. There are four presentations of OSDD listed in the DSM-5: In practice, subtype 1 is much more common than the others. I don't think of things as like.. they "will get better" but moreso that they will change, and that is something to aim for. But I am somewhat aware that other alters are fronting, but not all the time(I stay conscious throughout others fronting is what I am saying). I don't think our main persecutors ever fully fronted and were similarly very angry about this. I literally switch between stereotypes sometimes, shallow charicatures (no identity take-over) of other people or animals, without amnesia. Modes in BPD don't have a separate sense of self. It soon became apparent that what I had been taught was simply not true. Blurry can be an abstract concept for someone who does not have DID/OSDD and may be a little difficult to understand. For DID awareness day, I want to bring awareness to the vast spectrum of DID and OSDD symptoms. We also use third-party cookies that help us analyze and understand how you use this website. Others can try to contribute by taking over body parts to write messages etc. You might feel afraid or shamed of the possibility of others finding out your thoughts. Barely alive, existing moment to moment, knowing I was different than others but not why I was different. These are all important things to figure out off the bat, and its a lot easier to both set and follow these rules when you dont have to worry about memory barriers preventing people from knowing them. A life filled with pain every day, pain to bring me to my knees and wish to die. This website uses cookies in order to analyze visitor trends. People with OSDD may for example have had some good enough attachment experiences, or other mitigating factors. I can feel this happening but have no amnesia , I can also be extremely confident and competent and can do extremely difficult work with ease ..and can feel I am invincible as a professional in my career and the more difficult my work is (others feel I should be stressed) the easier it feels to me ..I can also experience triggers out of my control and extreme anger and emotional stress and hurt which can immobilize me .. yes, if you have amnesia between switches, even if it's not 100% amnesia or 100% all of the time it is still DID not osdd-1b though it may depend on who diagnosis you as there is a grey area. That is the case with our system and the walls between me as the host and our core - I remember many of her memories crystal clearly and it can be hard to tell if they are mine or if they are hers. thank you so much. Thanks to this article, I can see how I overlap into both criteria which makes sense to not have an official diagnosis. (the latter will also bring up a lot of worker/management negotiation stuff too. You might struggle to retell what your childhood or adolescence was like. [1] Along with Unspecified Dissociative Disorder it replaces the diagnosis of Dissociative Disorder Not Otherwise Specified (DDNOS). There might be times when you experience intrusive thoughts, visual images, feelings, or urges that dont actually belong to you but to another alter. For example, ducks at the pond could be a trigger for a 7 year old alter to push their way to front, or someone calling who is a special friend for one alter in particular might trigger that alter to switch out. In the meantime, we will be continuing to push the idea that dissociation is truly a spectrum disorder! We see the presence of these dissociative parts of the personality as really important, and of course it is the stand-out feature of DID, but we also recognise that parts develop in response to trauma and disorganised attachment, as do a whole range of other symptoms. They cant be allowed to take over. The Plural Association is the first and only grassroots, volunteer and peer-led nonprofit empowering Plurals. It was easily one of the strangest experiences I've had in the now. Disclaimer: Thank you for reading our peer article; we hope it was empowering, informative and helpful for you and your System. I agree DID in its entirety gets more attention as complete fragmentation caused by trauma . Will we be left behind? We are a system with OSDD 1b (fully formed alters with no amnesia), and we all feel validated in knowing that there are others like us and we arent the only ones who exist as separate people and switch regularly, but without amnesia. Maybe not right away, but eventually. They dedicate their time to documenting their plural journey and showing others that you can live a great life with OSDD. At one level that is eclectic theory, but in practice it can mean that a person with OSDD has fewer adult parts to help share the load. Where is my childhood? This category only includes cookies that ensures basic functionalities and security features of the website. While this disorder is hard to live with, we often lead fulfilling lives. I post information, resources, positivity, recovery, and thoughts on dissociation and trauma recovery. I went insane as a 6 year old male child. Feeling those feelings, thinking the thoughts of that child and feeling his body as it had been used. And there comes the second fact, I have three ANPs and identify highly with Polyfragmentation, and its a huge mystery to me on if I have OSDD or DID along with that. The word sub system can have several meanings when discussing DID/OSDD. On a neurobiological level, differences can be seen in studies measuring the volumes of the hippocampus, a key component of the brain largely associated with memory formation and retrieval. Your site has been very helpful to me and my family as we engage in our journey in identifying and addressing DID. They can have black-outs, but it does not severely impact their lives. I find that really confronting and scary because then I can't deny to myself that they are real and separate from me. Dissociative disorder not otherwise specified (DDNOS) is a catch-all category for dissociative disorders that do not fall into other groups. A fantastic video from Dr. Mike Lloyd from the CTAD Clinic on how alters/parts in DID/OSDD develop from complex trauma. (PLEASE dont use this list to diagnose yourself. So what is the solution? I wish the answer were easy to find, and equally easy to put into practice. If two alters choose to switch with one another, they usually have some degree of co-consciousness with each other and could both choose to remain at front, or actively aware of the outside world, after the switch. All of them want to die. You might see personalised advertising on our services, on other websites or in marketing emails. My final tip is to know that things will be okay. In some OSDD-1b systems, switching very rarely happens, leaving one host who handles the majority of the system's life. Going insane as a 6 y ear old is not something you want on your bucket list, Your email address will not be published. Were not doctors or clinicians and our nonprofit, our work, and this website in no way provide medical advice, nor does it replace therapy or medication in other ways. Sometimes it's noted with a headache or even migraine. This website was last updated 11/29/2022. According to the American Psychological Association, the predominant feature of OSDD is: presentations in which symptoms characteristic of a dissociative disorder that cause clinically significant distress or impairment in social, occupational, or other important areas of functioning predominate, but do not meet the full criteria for any of the disorders in the dissociative disorder class. Things come out of my mouth, stuff Im saying and I dont know why Im saying it. OSDD usually forms in the child's early teens, or even earlier. OSDD is not diagnosed by subtypes, unlike its predecessor, DDNOS, and . Your healing journey is very much appreciated and is very encouraging! Not an issue. You might experience hallucinations or delusions, usually related to past trauma. So not all information on this website might apply to your situation or be helpful to you; please, use caution. Ive come to find the youngest one is actually two who are fairly close in age. Im sure that plenty of systems are already quite familiar with that feeling and theres no reason to continue spreading that within your own head. DID/OSDD System Roles navigation search There are many so-called "Roles" in a dissociative identity disorder (DID) or Other Specified Dissociative Disorder (OSDD) system. Check this PDF for the symptoms of C-PTSD. It doesnt feel like me, and when Im like that I can remember things that I dont remember the rest of the time, although Im always worried that Im making it up. Although Im still not sure where my personalities and I fall, I feel more informed and less concerned about the difference between the two. (DNI: If you have been blocked, please do not interact. The belief that DID is overdiagnosed & primarily diagnosed in America. Others might tell you that you sometimes act very differently, almost like different people. We went from being able to communicate internally very clearly but with strong amnesia walls and difficulty distinguishing switches happening between neutral and non-violent alters (and no switches happening for a while or ever for some alters), to having all but two of us go dormant and it just being a daily head-to-head assault of violence and abuse, to taking anti-psychosis which created communication barriers in the system but obviously didn't "cure us", to years later being confronted by the disorder again and seeing alters come back from dormancy changed or fused, to finally working together coherently, to now 6 of us in a happy system striving to make a life worth having fought for. Alters might feel things likethose are the hosts parents, not mine.. It is mandatory to procure user consent prior to running these cookies on your website. I don't think you always cofronting is a problem, I've heard of it before. Other times, it feels.like a switch flicking in my brain and then the feeling that if that part were not a part of my life, it would.be leading a completely different life. The disorder and symptoms manifest in childhood, always. However, this is not our typical experience as an OSDD system. I often describe it like I am on a system. I think it would make sense for my experience to be a spectrum than necessarily one or the other. Someone might have told you that you did or said something that you dont recall. Horrible beyond belief, yet necessary. A common thought we had at the time was We dont black out or lose time, so surely we arent switching, which means this must be fake, which was incorrect for many reasons. She says: My advice to clinicians is that until they have met an alter, it is not DID. We have touched on two major differences already less elaboration or switching to distinct parts, and less amnesia. There might be alters who still carry onto memories, thoughts, feelings, or behaviors related to past trauma. (amnesia between parts). Instead of an alter switching to front, they can exert passive influence on the alter currently at front. I havent read about this before but it has to be so that everyone is different. The more accurate information available about these chronically misunderstood systems of coping the better for all. For more information on the data that this website collects and how to opt out, please visit the, "A New Model of Dissociative Identity Disorder", Multidimensional Inventory of Dissociation (MID), Creative Commons Attribution-ShareAlike 4.0 International License. Then we found out about OSDD, and suddenly everything made sense. As someone who lives in the States, but plans to move to the UK at the earliest availability, this also helped urge us to get our treatment while we can. Identifying or personal information is not collected on this website, and the data collected is not sold to or shared with third party services. You might have moments where you dont even remember the times you have forgotten things. Most often, weve heard the idea of one person stepping back and the other stepping forward, a complete loss of control for one and a complete gain of control for the other. Sometimes for a split second, sometimes for hours, sometimes for a day. My brain creates vague replicas of people and it feels as though I become them (and it can feel horribly intrusive, it seems to be mingled with something obsessive compulsive), have their face and ways of behaving, but I dont take over the identity or names, so this is possibly a different mechanism. I can watch everything that Im saying and doing, but its like I cant do anything about it and I dont know whats going to happen next. One of our system's little quirks is that our childhood is just *poof* gone. (Literally -- there is no fundamental difference between the "host" and "alters" other than who takes care of the day to day responsibilities. Thank you, this has been very informative. You might sometimes experience heightened or muted visual/auditory distortions with no medical cause, such as blurry vision, muffled sounds, or tunnel vision. it quickly developed into them trying to traumatize me as much as possible to "break me" so they could "re-make" me as a person they'd want to have as their host. Blurry describes a "feeling" or internal state of a System. Normally, a reed switch is constructed of two thin metal strips, or reeds, which are sealed in a glass tube. Everything in the system happens for a reason, even if we do not know what it is. Its so nice to meet others that feel the same way. I couldnt believe what I was saying and how I was behaving.). We wanted to help make sysboxes you don't usually see, especially with most system user box blogs run by endos.our main is @friends-call-me-snow-miser (if we reply to comments) and our system blog is @fromthewondersystem mod wonder it's when "you" just sort of "become" someone else, but you still feel like yourself. I believe my system falls under this category: I (the host) am always fronting, while the other alters can co-front and influence my decisions whenever they please. I believe that the idea that one needs to black out or feel like youve completely lost control leads a lot of newly realized OSDD system to believe that they never switch when they actually are switching without realizing. Please consult a licensed professional before making any healthcare decisions or for guidance about potential mental health conditions. And what about instances of amnesia about amnesia how do you know that you have amnesia for something if youve forgotten that it happened in the first place?! Hi, for the longest time, I thought that I had OSDD-1b, and its come to my attention that might not be true. At what point, when that is happening, could you state that you no longer have amnesia, and should your diagnosis change from DID to OSDD? I grew, matured, had a career and a life. Schizophrenia can seem a lot like DID to someone that's not a trained professional. If you have alters, you've had them since childhood; systems only form due to severe repeated childhood trauma before age 9. yeah, but that doesn't mean they always differentiate early-in-life. This is a complex area of debate, because as Spiegel et al, in their paper Dissociative Disorders in DSM-5 (2011, p.839), point out: According to Kluft and Dell, only 15% of dissociative identity disorder cases regularly manifest easily observable alternate identities during diagnostic interviews. Many people assume that DID and OSDD are such extreme rollercoaster disorders when thats usually not the case for any mental disorder! Where are my memories? A common identifier in the OSDD community is the idea of OSDD-1a and OSDD-1b, the theoretically two boxes that OSDD systems fall into, depending on what criteria they dont quite match. You should look into persecutor alters and the reasons they might exist. There might be alters who have suicidal thoughts, physically harm the body, or engage in risky behavior. (And if parts are integrating or fusing during therapy, at what point should you likewise shift along the spectrum and change your diagnostic classification?) b) People who are somewhere in the "middle" of this "spectrum", i.e. Seek a professional if you are questioning a mental disorder!). At least now I know. It provides a coded signal which, when interrupted due to a safety event, signals the machine to shut down. Watching a show to kill time, I felt like I was 12 again, staying up and watching a show in my phone knowing I should be asleep. Some individuals with OSDD-1 lack both amnesia and highly distinct parts, and other individuals with OSDD-1 have highly distinct parts but rarely or never switch between . For example, ducks at the pond could be a trigger for a 7 year old alter to push their way to front, or someone calling who is a special friend for one alter in particular might trigger that alter to switch out. The DSM-5 adds some detail to it, saying: This category includes identity disturbance associated with less-than-marked discontinuities in sense of self and agency, or alterations of identity or episodes of possession in an individual who reports no dissociative amnesia. In other words, OSDD often presents as not yet or not quite DID people who havent yet met the criteria for dissociative identity disorder but may well do so in the future, or people who have slightly atypical forms of DID, for example by not having amnesia. External signs that a switch may have just occurred include the following: heavy blinking as if the individual is just waking up; mild muscle spasms or jerks; disorientation or visible confusion; checking the clock or one's watch; seeming not to remember anything that just happened; complaining of a mild or moderate headache; adjusting clothing or posture; clearing one's throat before speaking so that the tone or pitch changes; or a change in vocabulary, syntax, preference, opinion, temperament, skills, or general personality. A lot of people dont even realise that Ive changed I just get told that Im moody or something like that. It was, like you, said, in smaller bits of control. It all feels international with so e rexterior differences that most people won't pick up on or won't think a thing about it. I cannot describe the relief we felt knowing that there was a category of systems explicitly for those who did not fit neatly into the DID criteria. My system usually falls into that categoryits OSDD 1b I think? There might be times where your body seems to be moving and speaking on its own because another alter is controlling it. But if up to three times as many people receive a diagnosis of OSDD/DDNOS compared to dissociative identity disorder, it would suggest that the definition of DID is too narrow. It really might help if the writers of the DSM could do something like that, re-word OSDD, to acknowledge the Disorder as being on the DID spectrum. In fact, OSDD is meant to be a broad category that encompasses many "partial DID" experiences. Passive influence can be described as intrusions from alters that are not currently prominent in the mind or using the body. These intrusions may also cause the fronting alter to gain skills and abilities that they do not usually have (such as public speaking despite normally suffering from, Both full switches and "partial intrusions" of alters are described in more detail by Dell in, "I have one particular child alter who has a very good sense of humour, and part of his role is to help us experience enjoyment and lift our mood. Thank you. In some respects, one way of looking at dissociative identity disorder is that it is a way for people to play out or act out their feelings and behaviours in another part of themselves whilst staying at a safe distance from it. Non-switching systems, or partial DID as it's called in the ICD, are systems who have an alter always remain in front, and other alters can "only" exert passive influence and co-fronting. We are a system with OSDD 1b (fully formed alters with no amnesia), and we all feel validated in knowing that there are others like us and we aren't the only ones who exist as separate people and switch regularly, but without amnesia. You might have moments where you feel like you are in a dream or a fog. People with dissociative identity disorder have at least two distinctly different identities, but some believe as many as 100 can emerge. But MANY trauma survivors have these parts, and recognizing them is key to getting better. Because change is inevitable when you're on this planet, no matter what. Sometimes, when in big distress, it feels like derealization and everything seems to just zoom by. I've had 2 non-switching alters for at least 9 years now. ", "People unfamiliar with Dissociative Identity Disorder may envision the walls between alters and their memories as being concrete, but it is not that simple. This video goes together with an article and letter from The Plural Association. Vote 0 comments They were removed from the DSM 5 bc switching systems without amnesia (OSDD-1b) are more common. But also when Im like that, I cant do other things I normally can, like tell the time. Better suicide than being whole. You might lose a lot of details or misremember the important bits. Welcome to /r/AskDID, the sister subreddit of /r/DID which focuses on those that wish to ask questions about Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID), Other Specified Dissociative Disorder (OSDD) etc. It can be highly disorienting for those involved and can interfere with memory formation, concentration, and remaining covert (that is, not appearing visibly mentally ill to others). Create an account to follow your favorite communities and start taking part in conversations. In a moment, my interests, name, vocal inflections, gender- change. Consensual Switches Consensual switching is when two or more Parts mostly agree before a switch occurs. A subtype of consensual switches are planned switches that were agreed upon ahead of time. Your email address will not be published. I go by he/them pronouns. Of course they are not, and their experience is valid exactly because it is their experience. Ive also seen others who believe that DID/OSDD are just having alters and not liking themwhich is also not an accurate portrayal! Many people therefore see DID and OSDD as appearing on a spectrum, and prefer to conflate the two conditions so that DID/OSDD represents a range of dissociative experiences with more or less amnesia and greater or less elaboration and distinctive identity states or parts of the personality. We discussed the results but not the diagnosis (I know its mostly for insurance anyway, but I like to do research so I like to know whats going on). A full switch is rarely necessary. 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